Job Hunting and Business School

After accepting the job offer from Deloitte, I suddenly feel like a mountain has been lifted off my shoulders. I seem to like my classes a lot more and actually put in some effort into my homeworks. I pay a lot more attention in class, now that I don't think about the cover-letters I would be submitting at the end of the day.

All this makes me wonder, did the uncertainty in the job market destroy some of the value of an MBA? I am guessing that learning and gaining knowledge were one of the top reasons why most of us came to business school. The amount of work that is needed for job search and the sheer fear and uncertainty of being jobless are sure to distract us from our endeavor to learn.

Being in an MBA program felt like paying a glorified hiring consultant first, and a graduate school next.

And this makes me wonder... is there a better way to structure an MBA program? Or is this exactly how it is designed to be?

अँधा बदल - The Blind Cloud

One of the few poems I wrote in Hindi:

अँधा था बादल

जो बाहों में था चाँद,

घुर्राते गरजते

ढुंडा था प्यार.

तोड़ के बंधन

जब निखल आया चाँद,

बादल ने पिगला

बहलाते आसून.

And the translation:

The cloud was blind, though it had the moon in its arms

Storming and thundering and searching for love.

Breaking the bonds, when the moon emerged,

Melted the cloud with tears of rain.

The Light

It has been a long time since I have been touched by anything. Isolating myself in a dark corner busy with the rat-race of life, I failed to notice anything of the world. And down to this cold place came light in the form of a sparkle in a light-less eye and a confident and vivacious smile.

When I got a mailer asking for volunteers to transcribe blind children's' exams, I felt I had to participate. I am ashamed to say that it was only something that would look good on my resume or MBA admissions profile. I helped promote the event and publicize it, ensuring that the organizers get enough volunteers. But I was still stuck in that dark corner.

Things changed though the moment I visited that place - Devnar School for the Blind. I wrote one exam for a 6th grade kid and I fell in love. The easy smile and general happiness of these kids have made me feel both jealous and inspired. The surprising warmth I was shown by each and every kid I met in the school had my heart weeping with joy. The confidence with which these kids face their lives and the dreams they aspire to have increased my own resolve and passion in life.

Although I went there planning to participate in a single exam, I couldn't ignore the light now shining in my pitifully cold and isolated space. I was now exposed to the sea of things I could do for the school, the least of which was organize volunteers for more exams coming up.

It is unfortunate that our government does not provide for a separate syllabus and study direction for the visually challenged. They have to prove themselves at the same Mathematics and Science and learn the same lessons that even those children with all senses find difficult to relate to. What can these kids make of Geometry and Trigonometry when they have to feel every shape with their hands? What meaning does a "Litmus Test" have, when one can't even perceive color?

And to top it off, this particular school had very little monitory resources - they couldn't afford to hire trainers specialized in training the blind. They infrastructure was minimal and could improve a lot in terms of sanitation and hygiene. The school even houses kids abandoned by their parents and they have a tough time sufficiently providing for their food and clothing.

Despite all these difficulties, these kids face life with a smile. And they have dreams - one kid wants to be a playback singer, one wants to get into the IIMs and one wants to become as great a mathematician as Ramanujan.

I now see the difficulties these kids face as an opportunity for me to help. I have personally taken a resolve to spend my "birthday treat" money providing a feast for these kids instead of my friends who don't need it. I have also convinced my family to do the same. Maybe if enough people do that, all 365 days of the year will be provided for. I also want to spend whatever time I can with these kids, helping them with their studies and just being a friend to them - pass on whatever exposure I have to them. I want to carry the light that was handed to me.